This post doesn't contain any make-up references, just my thoughts and reactions to Mass Effect 3 and the whole ME series.

(I don't have the extended cut DLC, this post tackles the original ending only.)


I finished playing Mass Effect 3 and have a need to make this post.
If you're wondering why did I finished it four months after it was published, it's because I wanted to make new ME and ME2 saves, because I wanted to play ME3 on Xbox 360, and not on my PC.

Now, I won't go into explaining why I needed those saves to play the third game, because if you don't know anything about Mass Effect, you probably won't read this because it won't interest you, and if you'd played ME series, than you already know that you can import saved games into sequel and play all three games with   the same character and game takes into account all of your decisions from previous games which end up affecting events in the sequel.
See...not explained at all :D

I was afraid I would suck at playing FPS-ish RPG on Xbox as I don't really like to play FPS games and mostly play RPGs. For RPGs you don't really need perfect hand-eye coordination  that you must have in order to be good at FPSes, and I played both ME and ME2 at my PC, so I wasn't really sure I'll manage the Xbox controller.
But I think playing Assassin's Creed series trained me well for Mass Effect, so I actually liked the feel of playing the game with the controller :)

Before this playtrough, I finished ME twice and ME2 once on my PC, so I pretty much knew all there was to know and I was afraid I would be bored playing it another time on Xbox...and was I wrong! :)
It was the most enjoyable cca. 100 hours of gaming EVAH :)
I fell in love with Mass Effect all over again <3

So, this is the reason I've finished the ME3 just now, because I wanted to make everything perfect for it to begin with.
I saved the Council, freed the Rachni queen, saved the Asari Thorian thrall, been almost 100% paragon, romanced Kaidan, stayed faithfull to him throughout ME2, had everyone survive the suicide mission, had all the Normandy assets, and finally destroyed the Human Reaper. It took me 50 hours per game, and I felt ready, but afraid, because I was aware the ME3 ending sucked donkey ass (the expression of my boyfriend's face as he finished playing ME3 said it all, he was almost ready to cry).

And here I am...I believe since I was already aware it is a major disappointment I wasn't as outraged as I probably I would be if I'd beaten the game the moment it launched. I had gazillion of theories as why and in what way it would suck, and some of those theories included Hackett and/or Anderson being indoctrinated by Reapers, Illusive Man being personification of the Harbringer, Mass Relays being destroyed, everyone in my party ending dead for the sake of the galaxy, the grand reveal that everything is just a dream of comatose Shepard or even that they will pull a Lost and make everything that happened in ME2 and ME3 be some Purgatory for Shepard and her friends to save the galaxy and at that moment realize they are  in the Afterlife, trying to get into some Heaven-like place.

So you see, I was aware I would probably think ME3 ending will suck, I just didn't know in what way. Now, don't get me wrong, I wanted to like it, I hoped I would be one of the few who is satisfied with the ending, that I would see in it something everyone missed and that I would be "Hey, I know Shepard died (for instance) but it was good, at least she finished the Reapers".

What I got was "It didn't suck thaaaaat bad :/", and after seeing cutscene with Joker trying to escape with  Normandy into godknowswhere, I was like "?". Why THE HELL would Joker, the one that always stood by me, EVER flee the battlefield? Even more, how THE FUCK is Kaidan at the Normandy, when he was in my party, in front of the Beam, probably dying of the Harbringer's laser attack?
And that post credit scene was absolutely unnecessary, it reminded me of the final scene of the Star Trek: Enterprise. I didn't need to hear from some grandpa from the future how epic Shepard was, she didn't need explaining, she just WAS.
Now, non-gamers, or even non-RPG gamers won't understand the bond you can develop with you character. Even though it is all scripted, and you can chose between pre-set choices, living with you Shepard for the last five years, looking at that face for hundreds of hours, learning from her, sharing emotions with her, watching the characters you love sacrifice themselves and is a really special bond.

Everyone's Shepard is their own, to the point when you go to Youtube and watch different ME playtroughs, it feels wrong.

But OK, ending scene, it is as it is, and you can't change that. And even if you think you can, by choosing  different door... all you get is the same room. All you are able to change is the color of the blast (with some minor or major destruction of the Earth, which is totally meaningless).

See, it all stays the same.

Or does it? You can choose your own path, but only one is canon?
If you chose Synthesis, you die.
Control, you die. live? O.o Why would you ever chose to destroy synthetic life? What about EDI and the Geth?
And I don't get the Boy Catalyst. Is he a part of some God-species? What is his purpose? Reapers are obviously tools for "ascension" and "preservation" of "old" species, flying jars of pickled harvested species.
And if you are so concerned about chaos and dominance of advanced species over "new life", why would you mindlessly kill those species, and use them for their DNA?
If you see that oh-so-feared synthetics (the Geth) are co-existing with organics, why try to undo all of it and kill everyone more advanced than primordial soup (I know, I'm exaggerating it a bit) ?
A person is more than sum of it's molecules, and if a Reaper is not one personality, but consists of billion of programs.

And one thing that bothered me the most is this quote here:

A new DNA? Really?
Sooo...that means everyone will stop being themselves and be changed into a new species?
I don't get it. Maybe it's because I'm a biologist, but you can't just change the DNA of the all of the Milky Way's species and as the only consequence have that EDI and Joker can finally be together as the member of the same species, I don't accept that.

But OK, it ended...and then I went to see Archengeia's thoughts on the subject...and I almost cried at what-could-have-been...

Just imagine that scene he's talking about...Harbringer dead, everyone at a huge party, reminiscing about fallen friends while holding your first-born child with Kaidan, little Thane...
OK, I maybe added on it a bit, but wouldn't that be a more satisfying finale?
To have to hold back the tears, because of overwhelming emotions of happiness and a sense of loss?

And if you are interested in more Archengeia's videos on the matter, you have to check these out:

Now, if you excuse me, I have to watch and read some additional theories on ME3, the documentary that aims to explain the indoctrination theory and a google docs file titled "A Logical Breakdown of Why the Mass Effect 3 Ending Makes No Sense"

I believe my brain will be even more full of fuck, after I read/watch it all, but I have to.

And please, I'm curious, if you read this entire post, please leave a comment.
you don't have to log in or anything, I would just like to see if anyone actually read it :D
just leave a "+" or something :)

Thank you,


Hello :)

Slijedi rant, slobodno ga preskocite i idite na slike.

Živčana sam, jako jako jako jako jako. Razlog živciranja je relativno banalan, pokušavam se prebacit s Tele2 na T-mobile. To je trebalo bit gotovo u srijedu, međutim, nakon komuniciranja svim mogućim kanalima sa službom za korisnike i jednog i drugog operatera, saznala sam da će to bit odrađeno tek 8.8., za  otprilike dva tjedna.


I to me neopisivo živcira, jer mi nitko nije javio da nešto nije u redu sa zahtjevom, da ja njih nisam zvala, tko zna bi li mi ikad i javili.

Od srijede do danas sam bila ovakva:


Samo što sam umjesto u kavu, buljila u mobitel i čekala da nestane signala, što znači da su mi aktivirali drugi SIM, od HTa.

Zatim sam današnji dan provela čekajući mail od Tele2.


Da bi mi na kraju javili da moram ponovo podnijet zahtjev.



Ako mi budu pravili problema i po tom pitanju, mislim da neću bit daleko od ovoga:


Znam, totalno first world problems


Uffff...sad kad sam gotova s dramatiziranjem, pokazat ću vam look koji sam radila kad sam išla gledat Prometheusa :)

Da, jako puno idem u kino i poprilični sam nolifer :D
Osim posla, kino je jedino gdje izlazim, osim na pokoju kavu, koje su najčešće iza posla, tako da ne nosim nek posebni make-up.
Odlasci u kino su mi postali jedina prilika za malo pomaknutijim lookovima :D
Kao što možete primjetiti, inspirirano je Blankom s Anatomy of Beauty :)
Pod "inspiriran" mislim na to da sam totalno ukrala ideju o obojanom pocetku obrva, tako da idite tu za look koji me inspirirao :)

Koristila sam essence tirkiznu olovku i sjenila iz 120 palete.

Jako mi se sviđaju ovako obojane obrve, jedva čekam da temperature padnu ispod paklenih, tako da ne dođem u situaciju iznojavanja obrva po licu :D

Jeste gledali ikakve dobre filmove u zadnje vrijeme? :)

Hvala na čitanju i ispričavam se na rantu, jače je od mene :D


ps - totalno se ne vidi da jako volim čitat Bitchy Dust, navikla sam da se rantovi najbolje izražavaju gifovima :)

Hello :)

U zadnje vrijeme mi baš ide s postovima :D
Nemam baš neke velike inspiracije za tekst, jedva čekam da dođem doma s posla :D
Zato, odmah na slike :)

Things I used:

  • Artdeco eyeshadow base
  • eveline Celebrities eyeliner
  • Sugarpill Burning Heart palette 
  • essence I love extreme mascara

You like? :)


Hello :)

Pošto nisam odavno pisala, nakupilo mi se jako puno materijala za postove :)
Danas vas zamaram gifovima Avengersa i make up-om za premijeru :)
Pretpostavljam da ste svi gledali Avengerse, a vi koji niste... what's wrong with you? :D
Šalim se, poštujem različita mišljenja, ali Avengersi su mi presavršen film :)

Since I haven't posted much in a while, I have a backlog of material to be posted :)
Today, I will bother you with some Avengers gifs and my first screening make-up :)
I presume you all have watched The Avengers, and to those who haven't...what's wrong with you? :D
I'm kidding, I respect different opinions and tastes, but the Avengers are just too perfect and awesome :)

A tiny bit of The Avengers gif porn:


Možete pretpostavit moje favorite :D
Prvi put ikad sam sam nosila obrve u boji, koje su trebale ispast ljubicaste, ali su na kraju bacale na rozo. 
Ali nema veze, svejedno je bilo fora :)
Moram napomenut da me za obojane obrve inspirirala Blanka s Anatomy Of Beauty kojoj sve inacice boja u obrvama super stoje.

You can guess who I like the most :D
this was the first time I colored my eyebrows, which were supposed to be purple, but in the end they were kind of pinkish. but it's ok, I still liked them :)
Blanka of Anatomy Of Beauty was my inspiration for rocking colored eyebrows in public :)

Le photos :)

That's me :)

Hvala na čitanju :)
Thank you for reading :)


Hello :)

U Zagrebu je depresivno zadnjih tjedan dana, prvo tmurno vrijeme, pa malo sunca, a čini se da će i ovaj vikend doć do vremenskih neprilika. Užasno mi nedostaju Dubrovnik, sunce, more, taraca s odrinom i povjetarac koji razbija vrelinu... Istina da mi ne nedostaju dani toliko sparni da je jedini nacin prezivljavanja zatvorit sve prozore i upogonit klima uređaj, ali nostalgija za domom nekako uvijek uspije ostaviti samo lijepa sjećanja.

Zagreb's been so depressing this past week. At first we had gloomy weather, then some sun, and it seems the upcoming weekend will be marked with colder and cloudy weather. I miss Dubrovnik, the sun, the sea, my terrace with grape arbor and a breeze that makes the heat more bearable... Of course, I don't miss the terrible heatwave when there's nothing else to do but to barricade the windows and turn on the air-condition, but the nostalgia for home always seems to bring out only the memories of good times.

A sad kad sam vas zagnjavila, prelazim na lakove :D
Ova accent mani mi je bila jedna od ljepših ovog ljeta. China Glaze Turned Up Turquoise i Golden Rose Sweet Color #55 krasno idu uz preplanulu kožu, bijeli kamen, sunce i more :)

And now, let's turn to the nail polish :D
This accent mani I liked the most this Summer. China Glaze Turned Up Turquoise i Golden Rose Sweet Color #55 go great with tanned skin, white stone, the sun and the sea :)

Here you can see how the color shifts between blue and turquoise

Naravno da su boje totalno drugačije u stvarnosti :D
CG je puno zelenija, a GR je neonsko jelly roza. Na zadnjoj slici je GR najbliža realnoj situaciji, ali je puno kričavija inače.

And of course it's not color correct :D 
CG is a lot more green and GR is almost neon jelly pink. GR is the most color accurate at this last photo, but is pops even more in RL.

Toliko zasad, idem se bacit na nove postove ;)
Hvala puno na čitanju :)

That's it for now, I'll go write more new posts ;)
Thank you very much for reading :)



Hello :)

vratila sam se s ljetovanja ( :plače: ) i za vas pripremila post koji nece pokazat ništa pametno, osim razlike između ponesene i upotrebljene dekorativne kozmetike :D

Da pojasnim, kad idem na put uvijek se pokušam što racionalnije spakirat, pri čemu je naglasak na pokušam :D Pošto sam dobila 120 paletu od moje krasne curice ( :* ) odlučila sam se da mi uz nju i ne treba puno ostalih sjenila, ali sam ipak, za svaki slučaj uzela još pokoji pigment, Sugarpill paletu i još pokoje sjenilo :D
Uz to sam uzela samo jedno rumenilo, malo lakova za nokte, kistove, tuševe za oči i ostale stvarčice koje vidite na slici.
Bila sam jako ponosna što sam toliko malo stvari spakovala, ipak smo išli na puna tri tjedna u Dubrovnik.

I'm back from Summer vacation (:cries:) and I've prepared a post that doesn't have anything smart to say, except to show you the difference between the decorative cosmetics thingies I packed for my vacation, and things I actually used :D

To clear things up, when I pack for a vacation I always try to pack as rationally as possible, I repeat, I try :D As I got a 120 eyeshadow palette from my wonderful friend, I decided that that's enough eyeshadows for a trip, but just in case I also packed a few pigments, Sugarpill palette and a few more eyeshadows :D I also packed a blush, a few bottles of nail polish, brushes, eyeliners and a few other things you see pictured below.
I was very proud of myself that I packed so few stuff for my three week long vacation in Dubrovnik.

S obzirom da je većinu vremena bilo pakleno vruće, da sam potamnila pet nijansi u tri dana i da se količina znoja mogla mjerit u kantama (gadno, znam :D ) na kraju sam koristila samo ovo prikazano na drugoj slici :D
Ako zanemarite lakove i parfem ostat će vam ravno dvije stvari, maskara i gel za obrve :D

Considering it was hot as hell most of the time, that I tanned five shades darker in three days and that I sweated in buckets (gross, I know :D ) at the end I only used the things in the second photo :D
If you ignore the nail polish and a perfume, the only things that remain are mascara and an eyebrow gel :D

Da, bilo je TOLIKO vruće :D Usto, kako sam potamnila, ten mi se ujednačio i nisam osjećala nikakvu potrebu za šminkanjem lica, a ni očiju jer sam se osjećala baš svježe i odmorno samo s maskarom i nečim da mi ukroti obrve :)

Yup, it was THAT hot :D Besides, as I tanned my skin tone got more even and I didn't have any need for face make-up. And I didn't use any eye make-up because I looked very fresh faced with only mascara and something to control my eyebrows :D 

Toliko za ovaj novi početak :)
Nije pretjerano poučno ni potrebno, ali s obzirom da većina vas tek ide na ljetovanje, razmislite koliko vam stvarno kozmetike treba ;)
Naravno ovo ne uključuje preparativnu kozmetiku ni mlijeko za sunčanje. Preporučam što veći SPF i pazite da ima UVA u kružiću što znači da UVA zaštita iznosi barem trećinu označenog faktora  :)

That's it for this new beginning :)
Not really educational or necessary, but as most of you are just getting ready for Summer vacation, think about how many decorative cosmetics you really need ;)

Of course this doesn't include preparative cosmetics, or sun block. I suggest you get sun lotion with high SPF and beware that UVA has to be in a little circle which means that the UVA protection is be at least a third of the labelled SPF :)

Usput, kako vam se sviđa novi dizajn bloga? Moram još malo poradit na headeru (malo je mutan) ali mi se sviđa ovaj minimalizam :)

How do you like the new design for the blog? I have a bit more work on the header (it's a little blurry) but I like the minimalistic look :)

Hvala vam puno na čitanju
Thank you for reading


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So don't be a dick and steal them.
If you do, I hope a wrath of thousands burning demon suns rain upon you.
Have a great day.
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